Dear Mom, Today was my first day of school and my second day without you completely. I've been expecting this for over 4 years, so it's not awful, just oddly sad. Students were eager to connect and that helped make the day more eventful. I considered doing the morning meetings at home, but I had to get out. I love being in the brightly colored, brightly lit classroom. I love that I'm showered and fully dressed with Vans on and not lounging. I love that I'm so busy, I forget to eat lunch. I love that there people here "checking in" on me. Josh came by with a large latte and banana bread this morning a real hug (we practiced responsibly). A couple of principals came to see me and it was good to chat with them. Part of my needing to process it all is being able to talk about it. Patty came in to do her afternoon zooms and we were able to chat as well. I left at the end of day feeling like I'm so blessed that I have people at work that really care about me.
I came home to Jim in the middle of a zoom session. Erika came home from her first day of work. She really likes her job and I think her taking care of you helped her to find a new career. She will be assisting elderly in their homes with exercise and errands. She's started with a small new company that she said is beginning to grow and feels there is potential for her to grow with it. It was so good to see her excited about starting a new job and possibly a new career. I made a stir fry for dinner and watched some news and thought about you, wishing I could call you to say hello. I could call Monika (she called me this morning before my first meeting). I have lots of friends I could call too-- so many friends commented on my post about your passing, hardly anyone you knew but they knew you through me. But you are the only one I want to talk to right now.
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